His presence is so sweet…
This morning I woke up quite early. I’d intended to sleep in, but 6 came and I was laying in bed half-awake, half asleep. I was going to try to go back to sleep, because I’ve found that if I can wake up and then fall back to sleep for an hour or two, it’s usually some of the best sleep I get.
But in that half-awake, half dream state, my mind turned to something that it shouldn’t have turned to and for a few minutes I contemplated something that is sin. Then in the deep recesses of my mind I heard a word - “Desecration” (hey! I know that Voice!) - and still in that half-awake, half dream state I spoke to desecration and commanded it to leave me.
Instantly I was awake (and I mean six shots of espresso awake) and my contemplation of that sinful thing was gone. It was like it fell like a house of cards in the wind.
So I wandered into the kitchen (Ken was still asleep) and pondered what just happened. I’m fairly sure it wasn’t a dream. So I talked to God about it, told Him I was sorry for letting my mind wander, and I felt His forgiveness (which - going back to my post yesterday about discernment, I often “feel” things God’s doing as well). Then I talked to Him about a variety of other issues going on, and I felt (and still feel!!) His presence and His love in such a powerful, tangible, literal fashion that I’ve started weeping a couple of times and at times I can hardly type… but I wanted to share with all of you what He’s up to this morning around here… what’s He doing in your hearts and your worlds today?
September 1st, 2008 at 8:43 pm
Oh goodness! That sounds very similar to something that happened to me the other night. My cross/struggle so to speak that has been a thing with me since childhood that as a Christian even didnt miraculously disapear and which comes and goes, this night had come back for another wrestling match…Anyway, this night its like the thing was on my lips and endeavouring to be spoken as in I relent or I give up and simply give in to it. I woke up in shock - upright position with this terrible feeling I was being used but I woke up just in time. God is good and I am reminded that the journey is in the plans of God for me even the struggles and He is with me giving me strength to endure and contine and not to give up…
September 2nd, 2008 at 5:40 am
Anita - wow! That IS similar!!
I’ve been pondering for some time now that we HAVE the victory in Christ, we just so often refuse to actually take the victory (if that makes sense)… I think I might write about it in a coffee or two.