God the Refuge of the Righteous (Psalm 94)

O LORD God, to whom vengeance belongs—
??O God, to whom vengeance belongs, shine forth!
??Rise up, O Judge of the earth;
??Render punishment to the proud.
??LORD, how long will the wicked,
??How long will the wicked triumph?
??They utter speech, and speak insolent things;
??All the workers of iniquity boast in themselves.
??They break in pieces Your people, O LORD,
??And afflict Your heritage.
??They slay the widow and the stranger,
??And murder the fatherless.
??Yet they say, “The LORD does not see,
??Nor does the God of Jacob understand.”
??Understand, you senseless among the people;
??And you fools, when will you be wise?
??He who planted the ear, shall He not hear?
??He who formed the eye, shall He not see?
10 ??He who instructs the nations, shall He not correct,
??He who teaches man knowledge?
11 ??The LORD knows the thoughts of man,
??That they are futile.
12 ??Blessed is the man whom You instruct, O LORD,
??And teach out of Your law,
13 ??That You may give him rest from the days of adversity,
??Until the pit is dug for the wicked.
14 ??For the LORD will not cast off His people,
??Nor will He forsake His inheritance.
15 ??But judgment will return to righteousness,
??And all the upright in heart will follow it.
16 ??Who will rise up for me against the evildoers?
??Who will stand up for me against the workers of iniquity?
17 ??Unless the LORD had been my help,
??My soul would soon have settled in silence.
18 ??If I say, “My foot slips,”
??Your mercy, O LORD, will hold me up.
19 ??In the multitude of my anxieties within me,
??Your comforts delight my soul.
20 ??Shall the throne of iniquity, which devises evil by law,
??Have fellowship with You?
21 ??They gather together against the life of the righteous,
??And condemn innocent blood.
22 ??But the LORD has been my defense,
??And my God the rock of my refuge.
23 ??He has brought on them their own iniquity,
??And shall cut them off in their own wickedness;
??The LORD our God shall cut them off.


Is a sociopath so very evil that he or she cannot be saved?

Modern psychology teaches that there is no hope for them. I cannot believe that is true. I have come to believe that this is not a disease; it’s a series of choices that have led to a series of demons.

I know God. God is love. God loves everyone, and sociopaths are a part of “everyone”. They can choose differently, and just like anyone else’s freedom – it begins with that single step toward God.

They are not stuck there. They are not helpless. They are not “fine” after sitting down for a while after having been busted. They are not incapable of change. They are not sub-human, soul-less monsters.  Those lies come from the same pit as the lies the sociopath has been telling, and from the same pit as the lies we tell ourselves about the abuse we suffered.

The truth is that Jesus saves. The gospel is as valid for a sociopath as it is, was, and forever will be for you and me.

Uncontrollable Rage

Yesterday I felt an emotion that I haven’t felt in a while: rage.

I’ve felt angry – often – but the rage that came yesterday was uncontrollable. I was shaking, crying, and felt like I could explode or hit someone. It’s a good thing that it was just Ken and me here.

We were taught by our abuser that we have no right to justice and especially no right to seek justice. Of course that’s utter bollocks and there is no biblical foundation for that teaching – but it has kept said abuser nice and safe for years.

I have (mostly) come to terms with the injustice done to us. It happened, it sucks, and currently, nothing is being done about it. In fact, our abuser is celebrated and elevated to places where he can freely abuse even more people. Evidence that this is happening is ignored. We have left that system of abuse and control, and trust that God will sort out the mess.

So no – I wasn’t in a rage about that. My rage came when I heard the stories of others yesterday. I’m both comforted that we are not the only ones this has happened to, and outraged. In a way I wish we WERE the only ones. This is widespread, disgusting, and MUST be stopped. Justice will be served in these situations.

One had been abused, his leaders affirmed that it was spiritual abuse, and yet those leaders allowed the abuse to go on and allowed the abuser’s judgments against this man stand unchallenged. A new friend and I held another friend as she wept, broken, questioning herself and her very sense of reality. More stories of being built up and the rug pulled out. Devaluing. Discarding. Dismissing. Gaslighting. Manipulation. Brainwashing. Story after story. Heart after heart. Broken. Shattered. Devastated.

These things should not be. And so I rage inside. My rage has become a furious intercession.

And I content myself in this: “Alexander the coppersmith did me much harm; the Lord will repay him according to his deeds.” (2 Timothy 4:14)